I wouldn’t be surprised if I lose some followers or friends, but I’m just venting how I feel. In fact, if you want to delete me, go right ahead. I don’t really care any more.
Just saying that people in general suck, big time. They act one way to your face, then act another way behind your back. They’ll say one thing, then say something else behind your back which always ends up with someone getting hurt. And they’re so unpredictable! No one knows what they’ll do next.
I can remember when me and this one cousin who lived with us used to argue and I used to say that I’d rather deal with a thing than a person. My mom used to get upset with me for saying that, but that’s just how I feel. When you take your car, truck or any thing to get repaired, you’ll always be rewarded. The car will start and run so much better, and you’ll be taken from point A to point B. And you’ll get many signs that something’s gonna go wrong with your car so you know if you don’t do X Y is gonna happen. You fix the problem, and all runs smoothly. People are so much different. You think you’re going all out for them, and the next thing you know, you’re either making the problem worse, our you’re crowding their space. The end result is that someone feels hurt, left out and unappreciated.
I’ve always heard that if you move away from familiar surroundings to new ones that you should make friends. The probability of that happening is 2/10 if my math is correct; but then I suck at math. No one’s gonna regard you as a real friend. People already have their cliques that they feel comfortable with, either because of having something in common or because of knowing each other for as long as they can remember. I’ve run into this problem at school and at church; of all places. Kind of one reason why I don’t go to church very often although I believe in God.
I’ve always gotten told that I should make new friends should I ever have to move. As far as I see it, that ain’t gonna happen! You will always be considered an outsider. Friendships take time to build up; as well as sometimes they never do. Not everyone makes friends at the same pace. Everyone’s different. I’m talking from personal experience. I’ve tried, but it always backfires. You’ll either be made out to be clingy, or a creep, especially if you and the other person have nothing in common and I don’t have much in common with anyone. I like things and am fascinated with things that other people aren’t, and I’ve been or are going through stuff that no one else has gone through. I realize that will creep and weird people out. To be honest I don’t blame them. I might feel that way too, especially if I’m not educated in what’s going on with the other person.
So, as for this business of making friends or trying to be friends, I can forget the idea. I’ve tried but it’s never worked. And also forget this thing of trying to reach out to others, especially if you also got stuff going on. Either you’ll neglect your own needs, or be unappreciated. Not that I mind helping people. I’d go out of my way because I’d like people to do the same for me! People in fact have gone all out for me and I could never thank them enough. Or if you’re of a different gender from the other person, people will take things the wrong way and I don’t want to accidentally take the wrong step. Even if you’re of the same gender, things could still go wrong. So, I’ll stick to the things I love. Airplanes, trains and music and cut people out for a while, or maybe forever.
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