I was excited at the prospect of starting treatment for my Eating Disorder by continuing to see my psychiatrist and ultimately start therapy, which could take me years and years before things calm down. But I’m having a hell of a time trying to get stuff done so I can fly out of here. But things have hit a snag and it’s so ironic that what’s supposed to help me is actually making things worse because of it.
Right now, I’m trying to secure the paper-work that is needed in order to renew my papers so I can fly back to the US. The one and only hurdle that’s in the way and which seems to be getting higher and higher. And the reason for it is one stupid fax. For over a month now I’ve been trying to request that the clinic that I’ve been going to in the US to send a fax to the doctor that I’m seeing in the meantime while I’m here. It would be one where I was supposed to sign a release form so that my information can be released so I can get stuff together to leave. I can’t renew my papers without it. At the last minute is was discovered that the previous one that I signed last year because even though it said that the release form would expire after ninety days could be used again. The doctor here assured me that it would be okay since no date was on it; plus I also got the impression that what it actually meant was that the form would expire after ninety days if it wasn’t used. So we sent it off. And that’s when the real problem started.
First of all, the clinic here was supposed to send off the fax. I called them the afternoon it was supposed to be sent and they were like, “You’ll have to call the office up there, (the clinic in the US) to see if they got the fax.” In other words, what they were saying was that they couldn’t tell me whether they sent the fax or not. I was like, “Are you kidding me?!” I found that really weird and so far, that’s been the mother of all weirdness. I called the office in the US and they said they didn’t receive the fax. I called the doctor and he called them and asked them to send it. They finally did; a million years later. And it gets worse.
The thing that was supposed to happen after that was that the clinic in the US was supposed to fax them a summary of what I’m being treated for and when I’m supposed to see the doctor and my therapist. I called them and they said they got the fax and that they were going to send it off. I called the clinic here and asked them if they’d received the fax. They said they didn’t. So I called back the clinic in the US and they said they’d sent it and that to be on the safe side, they’d resend it and call them to let them know that I fax was coming. To cut an already long story short, the clinic in the US said they had already sent it three times when I kept calling them to verify that the fax was sent after the office here said they hadn’t gotten any fax and that their machine was working. Now the clinic in the US is considering sending it by mail. Can you believe this? Now when do you think it’ll get here?
There’s a ton of stuff I have to get done before I can book my flight. This one stupid fax is holding up everything, and in the meantime, the air fare keeps rising as the seats get filled up. And, to add insult to injury, the Thanksgiving Christmas Season is just around the corner and that’s the worst time to travel. The airlines will be taking advantage of the busy season by jacking up their fares. I really don’t feel like paying an arm and a leg for a plane ticket that I could have gotten at a way cheaper price. You see I wanna come back for Christmas and then fly out again, and I’m yet to book that flight also. That will be one of the few times when I’ll be able to visit home when I want to instead of when I have no choice. The people who’ve flown down to see their family for the holiday season will all be flying back and it will be harder to get on a flight then. I do not want a repeat of last year. We ended up having to pay over nine hundred dollars for a ticket that we could have gotten much less. I could get a much cheaper ticket from Seattle to Manchester, UK for crying out loud. What even made it worse was that I was flying through New York and would have to connect on another flight to Seattle and the weekend before; there was a massive blizzard in New York. I kept telling my mom that it was going to be harder to get out and that flights would be full because the passengers who’d already been booked on the flights that had been cancelled would get precedence over those who were just booking. My mom wouldn’t believe me, but; not to sound cocky or anything but I know a little more about procedures of booking on flights and aviation in general than most of my relatives. They don’t think I do though and many times, I feel like my intelligence in that area is being insulted. I knew that the fare was going to go up because of that and it did. The result of that was that exorbitant fare we had to pay.
I’m beginning to wonder if it’s worth it. I’m thinking of just closing up shop and just ride this out and face the consequences, whatever they are. This road is just getting too bumpy for me and my springs are about to break and I’ll leave you to guess what normally happens to a car when the springs break; especially while going around a corner.
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